My Love - Visitor's Love Message

by Abi Vasanth
(Love World)

Well, exactly this is not a story....
It is reality of my life, a note to my love wondering whether it will reach him, wondering if he will understand, wondering if he feels the same, wondering whether I will succeed, wondering whether my love will survive...


There are many people in our lives, who just walk by,
But only a few make a difference.
And you are one of them.
Don’t know why but you move away from me.
Don’t know why I feel so different while with you.
My eyes speak a thousand words in a language
you never understand.
Days pass by but I am still unable to forget anything.
It’s a weird feeling that arises that sends chills down my spine.
I know that I shouldn’t be doing this, yet I can’t restrain myself.
It pains to see you with others.
I feel I should develop hatred towards you.
My mind tells me to forget you but my heart doesn’t concur.
Life turns into a mystery yet again leaving me
in a dark room full of candles but no light.
I stretch my hands into darkness and walk towards light eternally
and still I haven’t got a hold of it.
Small incidents that can never happen flash in my mind
and they say that these are memories of the past.
I am not able to accept it but still deep within I feel it is true.
I never knew you before.
A small relationship, a temporary one
that has evolved into something more.
It has left me dumb with awe and surprise. Petty memories they are.
Am still unable to understand you.
You write more which appeals to my heart
but you fail to show it in action or words.
Your lips never speak your heart
and your actions conceal your thoughts
and now tell me, how will I know what you feel?
I still stay in a baffled manner
staring at myself at the turn of events.
An unexpected bonding that has developed into a very intimate one.
I don’t know how I should act but one thing I know is
never will those words come out of mouth.
I still wait.
Even if you may come to me and speak out if you do feel the same,
I am very sorry all I will do is cry within myself silently
and declare that I never felt that way.
I feel all is past and coming together
is ludicrous and I need to just be by myself.
I don’t want that same relationship
but I do yearn to be by your side.
But still I hold back myself with tears of pain and anguish.
Will you stay with me?