Saying Many things and Spreading Many Words - Visitor's Poem

by Charlotte
(CA, USA)

Rejection or not,
This is not because I found you so undivine
But my heart is not here
I have been through so much I fear,
And lost someone so dear.
I am still lost and wary,
A doll of no emotions
Breakable as glass,
How I wish I could share your feelings,
The temptation is just not there,
Or the thought of wanting doesn’t seem real anymore,
I wish I could care,
I am near the edge of sanity,
Placed myself in a vulnerable state,
Conflicting desires.
There never will be a farewell,
Because it will never end.