When I was 7,
Whenever it rained,
I thought the whole world was raining.When I was 15,
Whenever I faced a problem,
I thought I had the biggest issue.
When I was 18,
Whenever I partied and stayed out late,
I thought I had an exciting life.
When I was 21,
Whenever I thought about my future,
I thought that money and success would come easily to me.
When I was 23,
Whenever there was talk about careers,
I thought my qualifications and expectations would bring me far.
When I was 25,
Whenever I saw others made mistakes,
I thought I had the answers and would be better than them.
When I was 28,
When I was down with nothing much,
No career, no love relationship, no achievement,
I realized I had to let go in order to move forward,
I realized making mistakes are part of life,
I realized I was not that young anymore.
When I was 30,
I realized I had to overcome the love of ease,
I realized listening to one's heart means taking risks,
I realized other's silence does not mean agreement,
I realized I grow by learning from my mistakes.
Now that I'm 31,
I realized that no matter what I do or don't do will still evoke disapproval,
I realized people are generally busy thinking about themselves,
I realized different view points make my life more interesting,
I realized I can win more friends by really listening to others,
I realized being patient and monitoring results are crucial to my work,
I realized jealousy exposed my insecurities and damaged my relationship,
I realized honest appreciation rather than criticism brings more love,
I realized love and encouragement can spur one to achievement,
I realized love is more important than winning and being right,
I realized saying I love you and I'm sorry with sincerity work wonders.
As I took a deep breath,
And realized once again,
That there are many "I realized" that I have yet to experience.
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